The way I see it

I cannot understand myself sometimes. My need for silence, my need to just stare at the horizon and think about nothing, talk to nobody, just be there. It happened at a family outing yesterday. We were with all of our friends and family enjoying a day out in Payson. It was a beautiful day, sunny but not hot. I did not feel like talking to anybody. I was just there, staring at the grass, staring at the water, looking at the ducks. All the kids were playing, laughing, being silly...it was a joy to watch them. I was my old self, aloof and not wanting to talk with anybody. This has been my natural state of being for the longest time. Recently I have been slowly trying to change myself. I feel the need to connect more with people around me, especially at work. I want to talk to people, have meaningful conversations with them and connect with them at a deeper level. I want to know what moves them, what bothers them, what are their life's values. I want to contribute to their lives and...

Sometimes you will be remembered, sometimes forgotten Sometimes you feel loved, and sometimes ignored Sometimes life seems fuller and richer, sometimes it's empty and lonely Sometimes you feel a connection with someone, and sometimes a cold distance Sometimes you feel like dancing in the rain, and sometimes you use the rains to hide your tears Sometimes someone fills your heart with joy, and sometimes that someone causes your heart to ache But in all those times I remind myself - "I shall be fine, I shall be fine" Just because "I want to be fine"

America, thy name is freedom and liberty Man's endless pursuit of happiness The statue of liberty is thy symbol The Goddess of Liberty I call thee Giving refuge to the oppressed Offering respite from suffering Your heart reaching out to your brethren In love and compassion America, thy name is freedom and liberty thy spirit lifting people's consciousness To rise and embrace their uniqueness Never to harm but to love and include America, thy name is freedom and liberty Thou enforceth laws and doles out justice Thy undying promise of justice and equality To uphold my individuality America, thy name is freedom and liberty Blessed am I to be a part of you And I carry you in me My duty to thee is a promise To be True to myself and help others embrace their Truth Together we lift each other and build a circle of Love America, you inspire me Happy Independence Day!

Visiting my blog site after a long time. The last post I wrote was in 2012, four years back! I was wondering how much life has changed since then. I have changed so much and it's fun to read my older posts. I can see why I am what I am today from those posts,like breadcrumbs. I am a Mom of 2 boys now and that dominates most of my life. I am a Software Engineer and take tremendous joy in my professional life. God knows how much I have struggled with that and here I am today, very much at peace with what I do for a living. And with all these changes I am still that person who wants to evolve, who wants to grow spiritually and who wants to be her best self. I am still that girl who is drawn to religious practices and spiritual traditions from all over the world. My area of study had been Vedanta for all these past years but I have found a new tradition - Wicca. I am busy devouring it right now. Finding books and reading them and understanding what it means to be a witch. It's a...

Hindu scriptures always emphasize the importance of understanding ones duty and then following it selflessly. So what is our highest duty or duty to the Lord? It is to purify the body-mind complex, our prakriti, so that the Divine spirit can express Itself completely through it. This purification is the aim of my life, my highest duty.

Over the years now I have been watching both Hollywood and Bollywood movies and have enjoyed watching both the styles of movie making. There are of course several differences in hollywood and Indian movies and I am not the right person to elaborate those. But one thing did strike me a few weeks ago. There was a common thread in Hollywood movies which was rarely seen in Indian movies. It seems to me that movies made in USA do not trace the lives of their characters till the end of the particular story that they are exploring in the lives of the characters. For example, in the movie "Primal Fear", Richard Gere finds out in the end that he was being cheated and lied to by his client and the movie just ends there. It was a great ending, no doubt! The same movie was remade in Bollywood and they had to trace the story to the end where the lawyer takes his revenge with his client and all is well in the end. To put it in other words, every action will result in a reaction and Indian ...

I was thinking of the Vedanta concept of God being everywhere. He being the essence of everything that exists and that does not exist. The soul (or sanskrit "Purusha") is present in every being and non-being. While I was thinking about this, something suddenly came to my mind. Consider a painter or an artist who has created a beautiful painting. Won't you say that this painting is a part of that artist? The painting is a reflection of the artist's nature, his mood, his state of mind, an expression of himself. And all this gets poured into that art form when he creates it. So the essence of every art form lies somewhere in the artist himself. Isn't that similar to God and his creation? He creates everything out of himself and no doubt everything will have His essence, His presence in it. As if He has put life into everything. The artist creating magnificent forms pouring out his soul, his essence in everything that he touches. The result is this magnificent uni...